“Let’s take a deep breath and give yourself a hug,” I say after bath time. All four boys, including the 18 month old baby, give themselves a hug. Embracing themselves with their tiny and loving arms. I glare at my husband, to make sure he also participates in our evening ritual.

These are the moments that will always stay imprinted in my mind and in my heart. But after six years of being pregnant or nursing, I don’t want to forget the sweat and tears that went into my journey of motherhood. This blog is for future me and for all those parents who are in the trenches of parenthood, newborn phase, terrible twos, threenagers, fiesty fours, and onwards because who are we kidding, it doesn’t ever get easier!

My name is Jasmine and I am a 37 year old mom of four energetic boys, wife of tennis enthusiast who I will refer to as Dh, and a pediatrician living in Southern California. Dh and I live with our four kids who I will refer to as, V almost 7 year old boy, H 4 year old boy, A 3 year old boy and D 22 month old boy. To respect the kids’ and my husband’s privacy on the internet, I will just use these initials. Dh and I both work as physicians (he’s a family physician and I am in pediatrics) during the day and we are our kids’ chauffeurs, chefs, punching bags, you name it, in the evenings. Life is crazy between the hours of 6am (if we are lucky) and 730am and again from 530p-8p. Work is where we can relax and Mondays are our favorite day of the week (every parent knows exactly what I am talking about)!

There is so much chaos at home but we wouldn’t have it another way. I want to start a community where we can feel comfortable venting, but without feeling the pressures of being judged as if we don’t love it. Of course we love our kids, but man, parenting is HARD. And I want to create a space where we feel comfortable feeling ALL the feels to give ourselves grace for this time in life. I want to remember all of these moments, and now that I have finally had 1 month of not being pregnant or nursing (basically child free at night) after SIX years, I have begun to come out of this brain fog that has been clouding motherhood. It’s been rough, but I want to remind all the fellow parent warriors how we got here and I want to be here for the fellow parent warriors that are or will be joining us in this journey (or battle if you really wanna be honest!) We all go through struggles in life, with kids or without, and I just want to provide a safe space for everyone to share similar stories.

I cannot wait to share the struggles, the joys, the poop stories, the early morning waking’s, the love, and all the wisdom that we bring together! Thank you for joining me and remember one thing, we are all here to support each other always and forever!